With My Whole Heart
With My Whole Heart is a complicated story about family.
Jaime’s a young, single mother who is trying to make ends meet, feeling like she’s always waging an uphill battle to make sure she and her son are housed, fed, and healthy. Connor’s designed his life to stay too busy for relationships.
How complicated is it?
She’s his big brother’s surrogate, and he’s the sperm donor. How in the hell would this ever work? Connor didn’t know, but he was determined to convince the feisty little blonde to take a chance on him. What he didn’t realize was it meant taking a chance on himself, too.
Caution: This isn’t an MC story. If you’re looking for grit, you’ll need to get your hard on somewhere else. No one gets kidnapped or assaulted in this one. Or even runs around without underwear on, I mean … the hero wears boxers at one point. Come on! It’s like I don’t know the me who wrote it. Plus it’s super sappy in places, and an unusual story setup. It’s not a feckin’ unicorn, but it’ll do.
“With My Whole Heart is an engrossing, complex romance story with rich characters, love and loss, a sweet romance, relationship drama, and steamy, heart-pounding sexuality.
DeMora writes in a natural, flowing voice with careful attention to detail.
Within the first few sentences, MariaLisa already immerses the reader in her story and breathes life into her characters, giving them relatable emotions and vibrant personalities.
An engaging read!” – NY Literary Magazine
What others are saying
“This book has a special place in my heart. I was pulled in from the first words to the last.”
“This is a soft and truly beautiful departure from the grit and ferocity of MariaLisa DeMora’s MC worlds… not that I don’t find beauty in the Rebel Wayfarers and Neither This, Nor That characters and books! This author’s writing is just so sublime – the hard edges of the brittle life she depicted through clipped dialogue and terse prose in Bones being smoothed out and rounded eloquently into this intimate romance, centered as it is around warm, loving people who care so deeply for one another.”
“WITH MY WHOLE HEART is the best among a group so filled to the brim. It’s not always easy to find that diamond in the rough, and if you are looking for a warm heart, drama, very little angst, lots of soul, and flawless writing … look no further. This book is your ticket to romance nirvana.” ~CmP
“MariaLisa deMora is one of the best story tellers I have ever read. Her characters jump from the page into your heart. Jaime and Connor will stay in mine forever.” ~Gail Sawyer
“What an amazing book this was. I never thought I would see a storyline like this from one of my favorite authors because let’s face it, she’s a MASTER at writing an MC book. When I heard about this book I just KNEW I had to read it because it’s something different. Let me just say, this book is definitely in my Top 10 for 2017 it’s THAT GOOD!!!” ~Franci Neill
With My Whole Heart is written in the same world as Bet On Us. Be sure to read this compassionate and humorous gay love story, featuring characters first introduced in With My Whole Heart.
From Chapter 6
Standing just around the corner from the living room, Connor was glad no one had heard him come in the front door.
Marie and Cooper both knew where he stood on this meeting, and it wasn’t in favor of it at all. If they’d seen him, they would have clammed up, afraid to set him off. He was excited about them having another baby, knew it was something Marie had dreamed of nearly since Sam was put in her arms.
With a gestational carrier, he had no worries there. There was absolutely nothing to tie the baby back to the womb that nurtured during the pregnancy. Needing an egg donor, well, he got that it took two to tango, and with Marie’s eggs not an option, a donor was necessary. But he’d urged them to do a blind donation, not someone you had to look in the face for nine months. Sperm donor, also a necessity, and one he was honored his brother had asked him to do again.
Connor didn’t get confused, though, didn’t have any issues with Sam calling him Uncle Con. Never thought of the boy as his child. Sam was Cooper’s kid, end of story. This, though? Having the egg donor and carrier in one person and then getting to know that person intimately? Mistake.
That was how he’d felt until five minutes ago, at least.
Hearing this woman express sorrow at the death of someone she never knew shocked him, but her sincerity couldn’t be questioned. She sounded like she knew how it felt, and the genuine sadness in her voice picked at the scar he carried inside him.
When Cole had died, he’d known it. The minute it happened, he’d felt it. That damn psychic tie so many twins had that he and science couldn’t explain. The echo that had been so strong between them, always. Bicycle wrecks and broken hearts, everything had been shared between the two of them.
It meant the very instant his brother was no longer breathing on this earth had branded in his brain. Connor had been on the basketball court, taking a class of freshmen through a new set of drills when it felt like his heart exploded. He’d fallen to his knees, hands clutching his chest, silent in the face of an overwhelming pain. Scared the fuck out of the kids. They’d thought Coach was having a heart attack, and two of them had dialed 911, calling the sheriff to the school before he could stop them, leaving Connor to have to try and explain something he couldn’t even put words to.
Four days later, when the same sheriff came visiting they’d shared a knowing look. It wasn’t news to Connor that Cole was gone. Not to him. The silence in his head was enough proof for him.
If I’d gone in the military with him, I would have been there. Could have saved him. That was the only thing he and his twin had ever really argued about, and in the end, Cole’s driven need to protect and serve had won out, separating the two men for the first time in their lives.
Connor hadn’t felt the same calling, though. Cole had enlisted and headed to boot camp, and Connor had gone to college instead.
He listened to the murmur of voices grow softer, more distant and knew Cooper, Marie, and the woman had gone into the kitchen. Connor had been supposed to meet her, not understanding why Cooper wanted him to have a face to go with the carrier’s name, Jaime Grimes, but he’d been willing to go along with it. He’d laughed and told his brother, “Least I can do.”
Connor lifted a hand, knuckles grinding roughly across his sternum, accepting the pain as his due.
Knowing this woman standing in his big brother’s kitchen understood about loss, too, he couldn’t go in there. Couldn’t face her, afraid she’d see the guilt he tried to keep buried. If I’d been there.
Turning on his heel, he stalked to the door and went out, closing it soundlessly behind him.
Copyright © 2017 – MariaLisa deMora